Missing mother

Time runs so fast. A while ago it was night, and now it is already morning. The warm sunny day is about to come and yet here I am sleepless, in front of my laptop, trying to update my status on my Facebook account. Today is Sunday. I know it should be a special day, because it is considered as a family day. But losing the most important person in the family makes me think, how can it be special when someone is missing? – Someone who only knows the best for me and someone who’ve always been there through my ups and downs. Sad to say, that special person is not with me anymore.

I hate Sundays. Aside from the reason that my relaxation from all the stress I felt during the weekdays will soon be over, the other reason is something personal. It’s like a big part of myself was taken away from me. My usual happy Sundays were changed into gloomy one.

This was the day when she always wakes me up early in the morning to go to market and buy our ulam for lunch and dinner. I think this was also one of her relaxation habits after all the pressure she had from her work and also the stress she encounters every single day because of us, specifically me and my four brothers. This may be an ordinary scenario to others, but those were some of the precious bonding moments I have with my mom. Especually that time when I told her I want to know more about hosting ranking and website making and all.

 

Back then, from Project 6, we would go to a wet market near Cubao instead of just going in a talipapa near our house to buy our food for the day. We would always use our car so that we can arrive fast to the market and come back before lunch time. We also need not to carry those heavy plastic bags full of our pinamili. (Because I am too small to carry all those things.)

While we’re inside our car, my mom would always do her motherly role by checking on me. We would talk about how my school days went, check if I had found the love of my life, or just let me share my major sentiments or even the petty ones that I want her to know. (Maybe this was the reason why we always go to far markets.) Those were the times when she would put a smile on her face and let me feel that everything is okay. She would give me helpful advices, and would explain to me that some things are ought to be achieved through passion and hard work. She would let me know how she feels towards the things I have said and done, and tell me if I am doing the right thing or not.

After we parked our car, mommy and I would just go inside the wet and smelly market to know what our ulam would be. Mommy usually doesn’t bring with her a list of what to buy. She just goes straight ahead to the stalls and tries to see what she wants to cook later on. Usually, we end up buying seafood. My mom loves seafood and even exotic kinds of food. When she has money, she would buy crabs, shrimps, talaba (her favorite) and lato or seaweeds. These became my favorites too. During weekends, expect that some of these will be served on our table. After an hour and a half of buying our favorites, we would immediately head home so that she could cook something special for the family.

 

It is sad to say that we won’t be able to do it anymore because she’s in heaven now. She passed away 3 years ago due to her stage 4 cancer. Sundays became the ultimate bonding between me and my mom. I won’t be able to see her smile or even raise his eyebrows while listening to my sentiments. I’ll never forget those warm and special times, when she encourages me to do things that will make a big difference not only to me but to others as well. Now, I feel incomplete. Every Sunday, I  am often alone in the house. My older brothers are not here because they are working even on weekends just for my tuition. This is the reason why I seldom stay here because most of the time, there’s no one at home. The old times where we would all be in one table to eat and talk about anything can no longer be seen. It is quite saddening because the bond that we always do when my mother was still alive, seem to not exist anymore.

But as others say, life must go on. My life has changed since she left. On a positive note, I can say that I became a stronger and more independent individual than before. I believe that I could already face the world with high hopes and with more trust in God. If all else succeeds or fails, I know that God has a good reason and a better plan for me.  Everything that we see in this world is not permanent, all is just borrowed. We just have to give importance on things with great value and grab the chance while it still exists. That’s what I learned before mommy left us.

I never regret the time when God gave me the opportunity to take care of  my mom and let her know how much I love her . I thank God for that last 3 months I had, just to be with my mom. I stopped schooling for a year with a reason. And that reason is to have the second and last chance to take care of her, to give back all the things she had given me, and to assure her that I could survive without her.

Too bad I don’t have  pictures of me with my mom only. But I could show some pictures of her with our family.

 

Coffee calms me down

I am a lover of coffee. I can down at least three cups a day. Well, I am a fanatic of every coffee and I think this makes me sane whenever I get into pressure at work. My boss recently told me to look for a nas server test which I couldn’t find in the internet. Luckliy, I found one two days before my deadline. As a relief of course, I treated myself with some coffee in the nearest coffee shop.

Most people take coffee to increase alertness and concentration, improve mental and physical performance, and counteract fatigue. I personally rely on coffee to perk me up in the morning, and at other times of the day when my energy level tends to dip. This energizing effect is due to a substance called caffeine, that is found naturally in plants such as coffee beans, kola nuts, tea leaves and cacao. Synthetic caffeine is also added to energy drinks and snacks and some prescription and over the counter medications such as cold tablets and diet pills. Notwithstanding these benefits, caffeine can also be harmful and, in extreme cases, even fatal. Among healthy adults, too much caffeine may result in unwanted symptoms such as irritability, palpitations, anxiety, nervousness, tremors, hyperacidity and inability to sleep.

Caffeine (by definition) is a drug that acts as a central nervous system stimulant. Like other drugs, it has both benefits and risks, and as such can be subject to abuse and addiction. Regular intake of caffeine may result in tolerance or a decreased responsiveness to its stimulant effects; it also leads to dependence, and its sudden removal can induce withdrawal symptoms such as headaches, nausea and drowsiness.

 

The right time

No matter who you are–a rank and file employee or someone in the managerial position, you should know how to make use of time properly and respect other’s time too. For example, when you are in a meeting or in a meet-up, you need to be on time because other people will also make way just to beat the meeting time. If they will arrive in the place and you are still not there, and people will have to wait for you, chances are you likely to waste their time in waiting for you. So, be respectful of other’s time as well as they respect yours. I highly suggest you always have your alarm clock with you wherever you go. If not, you can always check on your mobile’s time so you know if you have certain scheduled meet-ups somewhere. If you are the stylish type, I suggest you wear in some wristwatch wherever you go. This way, you no longer have to check in your mobile to see the time. You just have to peak in your wrist. Right now, I am using this cute best wooden watches I bought over the internet and it does not only make me stylish and sophisticated. It also helps me in tracking time. I definitely recommend this one to everyone.

Dinner date

Set up a romantic candlelight dinner with your loved one. Whether you cook or have some delivery food over, prepping the table like you’re out in some fancy restaurants with a jazz music in the background can really set the mood between you and your partner.

You can also Play video games. It’s time to reminisce your childhood. Video games often bring out the fun that is long buried inside of a person. If you both like video games, then challenging your loved one for a console war is probably one of the things you will enjoy the most.

After this, why don’t you prefer to chill at home or surf the net? Make sure you have fast and reliable wifi connection (well, I do suggest you check access point test first) Goodluck!

Why I Love This New Service

I am always looking forward to trying out new things and services for my business. I love exploring new services because I know this can contribute to the betterment and easier business solutions. Lately, I was availing this cheap self storage business solution for my studio. I recently quit my job in the office and I am now doing freelance. I am always on the go right now. I have been going in and out of the country for some work and I do not have a space where I can store some of my most treasure possessions as a photographer. I only carry with me a few lenses and some cameras but I do not bring tripods, lights, and other photography materials. I just use them when I am in town. Since I live in an apartment, I am not at ease if I will leave it there. That Is why I availed the self storage service we have in town and I do not regret anything of it.

Going Back Home

It has been seven years since I left my hometown to pursue a career in the city. I was not able to go back home because I have been so busy with work and all the things I was doing that time. I went to corporate to freelance and I would love to just hang out with my parents and tell them stories of success and triumphs. Next week I will go back to my hometown and I have prepared a few gifts for my loved ones. I will give my mother some new kitchen tools I bought in Moroccoa and I will give a bag of coffee bean for my father. My young sister, who is a budding photographer, will receive a 360 kamera from me as a gift for her upcmonig birthday. It is actually the best 360 camera. She has been bugging me to give her a camera because she also wants to pursue photography just like her aunt. I think this is the right time to give her this kind of gift.

Quality service and excellent customer care

When I realized that I was going to be tasked with writing an Amazon Prime Canada review, I did my best to be as critical about the platform as I possibly could. I spent quite a bit of time on Amazon Prime, and I looked for the weakest elements of the website and platform because my job, in this scenario, is to critique the platform, not just sing its Praises. I found that especially difficult to do this time. Not difficult to acknowledge the value within the services, but rather the opposite. It is difficult to find flaws within this system, especially because Amazon Prime is pioneering this combination of services, and they managed to do it at a very high level. So basically, what I’m getting to is the fact that if any company was going to be able to do this type of broad service at a very high level, or rather, this broad range of an impressive collection of Services, of course it was going to be Amazon. Simply, of course it was going to be Amazon. And it was, and it shall be. Now, don’t get me wrong, often things will be delivered within a day or two with express delivery, but in certain Urban metropolitan areas of the United States, you just order something, and it is immediately on its way, and you’re not even paying more for the express delivery.

Feeling Blue

I am feeling blue right now. I have been in this state for a couple of days now because I was not able to get the job that I have been longing sinxce I was in college. I applied as a marketing officer of a retail brand but they have not called since. I remember I was wearing my corporate atture, my hair tied in a bun, I got my suitcase with me and I rtopped off ny look with a nice, classy Zegarki wood watch.

 

However, I think the compaby saw a potential candidate and ai was not able to fit in the position. I just jnow it as they have not called me since. I am now looking ay job openings in other companies and I am praying that they will call me for an interview. I am very excited to work in the corporate world since ai have been looking for a job for quite some time now. I dream to become a marketing manager one day of a known brand because it is my paasion.  Please wish me luck guys!

 

A fan serum

I am a big fan of this specific Vitamin c serum for face. Yes, people have actually told me that I glow, which I do not believe, until I look at myself in the mirror and I see it too. Yeah, I’ve been so used to being ugly and feeling bad about my skin that when people complimented I think that they’re insulting me at first, and then I realized that it probably does look good. And then I look at myself in the mirror and I feel so much confidence and that carries over for days and days and days until I just get used to feeling and looking good, but then I’m still taking off guard when people complimented because I just went through so many years of having bad skin. It’s certainly an up-and-down type of thing, doesn’t it sound like it but there’s no denying that my skin is looking and feeling better than it ever has, there’s literally no denying it, I had scars that used to be way more severe, acne scars, that had just been making me feel so bad about the way that I looked for so long, and now they’re almost gone. They at least are hidden by the health of the rest of my skin, which isn’t affected by the same lack of Health that cause the acne scars and has existed since, it’s not like I didn’t take care of my skin, it’s just such a losing battle, and you end up buying so many different expensive products and some of them work for one thing and not the other thing, some of them get rid of acne but dry out your skin and cause scarring on the acne that gets rid of, things like that.